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[Oct. 10th, 2006|12:06 am] |
oh my god what the hell was wrong with me.
i just read those really long ago posts.
and ive changed so much.
im actually happy people.
thats not who i am today.
unless im just hiding it all and im a big nasty fake ugly bitch.
who knows :D
lick pussy <3 |
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| i hate when friends move |
[Apr. 10th, 2006|03:43 am] |
ive always said about a million of my friends have moved
its the most upsetting thing in the world
and its the reason moving for me is my biggest phobia
im afraid of making new friends because they move
and im afraid that the ones i already have are going to move
friends that moved that the moving has affected the friendship:
sarah
anthony
donald
anthony b
brittany
alyssa
ryan
nicole
caitlin
victoria
gabrielle
sara
cathi
aunt barbara
and more.
efoajfoijaeoifjaeoifjaeoif. i just hate my life. |
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| ugh |
[Mar. 27th, 2006|07:21 pm] |
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| | The Fray - How to Save a Life | ] |
i have a problem
i am a compulsive liar
i lie to get myself out of trouble
i lie so i dont hurt peoples feelings
but most of all, to get away from people
for as long as i could remember,
i was never honest if i knew it would hurt
someones feelings. for a while i always told the truth
it was about 6 months until the beginning of this year
theres something wrong with me
because it will all eventually catch up to me
i upset my friends so much if they find out
so i lie even more to make sure they dont
but sometimes the word gets out
and i lie to myself that i did anything wrong.
im not honest with even myself
i tell myself that i lovee who i am
my hair,
my weight,
my face,
my teeth
but i find fault in everything
and the truth is id rather be anyone but me.
thank goodness
almost nobody actually reads this,
but as i sit here crying trying to do homework
i look back on every time ive lied,
every time someone was hurt because of it
and now i think i hurt someone, the LAST person
and i really do mean last person i would ever want to hurt
because we had plans tonight
and long story short,
i lied my way out of hanging out with someone else
to hang out with this person,
but in reality, i dont even have that much homework
as i told them, but i lied to make it seem better :(
and i viciously hate myself.
and i know what its like to get plans broken
and its the worst feeling in the world.
unless youre the person who broke them
and i didnt even have to.
i hate myself
i hate my life
i hate my lying
and i love my friends.
too bad society has no tolerance
for people who dont tell the truth
and neither will my friends
i need to stop
but i canttttt
i am a compulsive liar.
and im never going to change. |
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| yayayayay |
[Feb. 27th, 2006|02:22 am] |
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| | Sherwood - The Town That You Live In | ] |
hi.
im thinking: OMGZ IM NEVER GONNA USE THIS.
i just kinda made it so i can read my friends' private posts! :-D
CUZ I CARE.
but pretty soon
i guarantee.
itll turn into my life.
FUCK ME. |
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| boredom |
[Feb. 20th, 2006|05:48 pm] |
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| | Bloodhound Gang - Foxtrot Uniform Charlie Kilo | ] |
i hate livejournal |
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